Holidays in Kuantan

It has been nearly one and half years I havent touched my blog..Almost forgot its existance..It is a school holidays..I am on holiday before starting my new job at AEON...Kuantan is a nice place to visit..I had hair treatment at berjaya megamall and it costs me only RM80..In KL the salon will charge me like crazy..We are planning to go to Cherating but failed to book any hotel..Goshh all good hotels are fully booked and we left with the chippo one..ahaksss...this morning there was no water supply...huaaahaaaa..tension oooo..irfan and shuk are busy fixing tele in our car..Irfan is so exciting..No more boring journey back to KL...

Works!!!

Ermmm working...working and working.....I feel down..Dun know why...Maybe I am just too tired of commuting frm my house to the workplace....Aiman's birthday is coming...Still thinking for his birthday present...Ahhhh have to work...Better start doing TMO budget..Submission will be tommorow....

bosan

emmmm bosan sensangat...Malas nak belajar..mcm mana ni.....study Yan!!!!Tinggal one month aje lagi nak kene submit the final thesis...Please help me God...Aku mls tahap gaban!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Great moments

Last week i had all my families in the UK. We had such great moments together. It had been nearly three year I didnt see my sis. That was the first time I met little princess Nisrin Sofea. She such a lovely cutey wonderful gal. I miss Msia alot and cant wait to get my feet over there. I wish if i could turn back time...I want to have those moments with them back again.

Lots of luv...

kete rosak

Shuk and Endy were in Sheffield...The car broke down...I wonder wat happen over there.Thank God Aiman stayed with me.Coudlnt imagine if he joined the lad..Donno wat to say..busy with the assignment...

New Me

I nearly finish masters program in another 2 months time. After May, I just have another one big essay to finish and then byeeeee De Montfort. It is really a big challenge for me to get back into study after 6 years not having any academic attach. Well, I may be not getting straight A's, a couple of distinction in some assignment are fine anyway...hihiiiii, but I do enjoy myself attending Msc program. I develop self confidence, met more people, do a lot of readings...what should I complaint anymore.

Three years ago, I was frightened of attending job interviews. I dont even have guts to stand for myself. But now, I am happy I am able to improve my main weakness. Interview with UPM a couple weeks ago ran smoothly. I was a bit shaking in the beginning but I was able to take control later. Big self achievement.....

It is hard to....

Life is like a roller coster..But, shall I complaint if I couldnt get what I want???Or maybe something was so precious to me was taken away???

It took me some days to be strong enough to write about my recent experiences. But I realised that I couldnt run away from the fact that I just loss my baby. I knew I was 6 weeks pregnant 2 weeks ago. I was so thrill and excited. Knowing that I would have another children was an amazing experience. It was better than getting good results in exams. My tummy started to expand and love it. Shuk and aiman were excited.

I didnt have any problems with the latest pregnancy. I like to eat, no morning sickness, it was just great experience. But I did have sick tummy some times. I thought it was normal to some people and now I realised it was not.

Last Friday, I was bleeding and I went to the University Hopital Leicester and the Dr told me I was fine. I had got a funny feeling that something was wrong. She sent me home and asked me to have scanning on Monday. On Saturday afternoon, the pain increased and when I went to the loo I could see blood in the bowl. A lot of blood!!I knew I missed the baby.Shuk called few hospital for helps...But they just gave no damn shit to help...So we just popped up to the Uni Hospital again. I met the same doctor again!!!!And she told me now that I loss the baby....What a f..k.g.. shitttt..just the day before she told me, I was fine...

Miss Malaysia A lot...

But after all...this is all written in my life diary..This is all from Allah..The loss make my relationship with Shuk and Aiman more stronger. Shuk is an amazing husband and I kept telling myself how lucky I am to have him. Aiman is unbelievable...She asked me why I was crying..I just told him I got stomach ache..Aiman said no..Mama crying because she loss the baby.and he told me 'That's all right Ma'...

That's all right Aiman....We will try next time and pray for the good one this time. It was may be only 6 weeks I had the baby..But it was really amazing and missed every single bit of that moment.Good bye Sayang...